Idole8

2009...2010...

2009-12-29T02:05:14Z

stupid ranting ravings

My feet get cold when i take my meds.

My grandma doesnt even recognize my mother anymore. But she thinks i live somewhere else.

My brother's gonna pop the question to potential wife #3. hopefully the third times the charm for him. poor kid. bad luck with domestic issues.

I need to start drawing again. got a negative scanner form my mom. want to start but too much activity going on upstairs.

feeling very lethargic , sleep a lot. no much reason to get up until the snow disappears.

Volunteer at SPCA for twp hrs a week. Love working with animals. They dont bitch and have more gratitude then most of cursed human species that supposed to be part of.

Wish they leave Obama alone. Dude's go so much on his plate to deal, and he's only human being. A good one though, for once

A funny pattern has arised in Virginia...

2009-11-03T11:07:46Z

Gotta go vote today.

I know the Republicans will win. Not because of Obama, or politics, or whatever.

In the over 30 years, whenever a Republican is in the Oval Office, we vote for a Democrat for Governor. Whenever a Democrat is in the White House, we switch to Republican.

Cases in Point:

President: Republican George W. Bush (2000, 2004) - Democrats Mark Warner (2002), Tim Kaine (2006).
President: Democrat Bill Clinton (1992, 1996) - Republicans George Allen (1994), Jim Gilmore(1998).
President: Republican George H.W. Bush (1988) -Democrat Douglas Wilder (1990)
President: Republican Ronald Reagan (1980, 1984) - Democrats Chuck Robb (1982), Gerald Bailes (1986)
President: Democrat Jimmy Carter (1976) - Republican John Dalton (1978)

If Democrat Creigh Deeds loses - don't feel bad. Its nothing personal.

A time for dying.....

2009-10-20T23:02:47Z

This time every year, things are dieing. It gets colder. Little by little, the crickets fall silent. the herbs go to seed. the leaves turn brown and fall to the ground, eventually losing what moisture that remains and become brown and crumble.

Those that not die simply fall asleep, like bears and trees. Hibernating til the rebirth of spring. Some birds leave for warmer places.

My parents' dog - Miles - is dying. he's nine years old and can barely walk. the tumor that has grown on his back has not ruptured and festering. There is blood in his urine. I wish my dad would put the poor thing to sleep.

My Grandmother is 91 and has Dementia. over this last year or so it has progressed to the point she cannot be alone by herself. she needs 24/7 care either by my mother or caregivers. She just babbles now.

sigh....

What to do...

2009-10-05T00:45:15Z

- Flu shot (first for yearly than PiggyFlu in a couple weeks.
- Eye Exam/New Glasses
- Rabies shots for the cat
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my grandma can no longer take care of herself nor can she be left alone. She needs help bathing, clothing, medical management,etc...

Dementia (-_-)

According to my genealogical studies, I expect to live at least to 80 easily. However, mental illness and dementia are also present.

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My Mammogram can back NORMAL. Hooray!

Dementia...

2009-09-22T21:42:21Z

Ok. My grandmother is 91 and has dementia. Horrible way to spend the last years of your life. Its one thing to when your physical body starts to fall apart. Its another when you mind starts going.

After my Mammogram appointment, i come home to see my dad on the phone. apparently the home caretaker didn't arrive and he wanted me to go over next door to check on her. Good thing I did. I found her - screaming in pain half out of bed. She says she fell when she tried to to get up to go into the bathroom at about 4 am. I immediately called my dad and he went to get my mother who was in church. I helped her sit up and gave her some Tylenol and put a new pair of Depends on her. That was all i could do. I'm not a nurse or medical doctor.

About twenty minutes later my mother arrives and calls 911. We didn't know if her hip was broken or not but nevertheless she was howling in severe pain. Watching a loved one being taken out in a stretcher is never a good sight. But she wasn't coherent or of sound mind enough to explain to the paramedics what happened.

Now I'm thinking of my senior years. Will I end up like her at her age. It frightens me. I can accept growing old and the usual physical problems that go with it. But losing my mind?.....

That time of year again....OUCH..watch the shoehorn dude...

2009-08-18T23:28:25Z

My annual pelvic exam.

I know, not exactly the kind of detail about my life you want to know about, but I believe in posting this so that maybe other 30-something women won't be so hesitant to go in for a check up. As us females approach the "dreaded" 4-0, its also very important that we get our gynecological and professional breast exam once a year. Having a yearly exam gives you a peace of mind that everything is fine. So when something is found wrong, abnormal pap smear, found potential cancerous tumor, etc. You'll generally be more likely to catch at such an early state that the prognosis will be better.

And i got my perscrption for my yearly Mammogram. Yes I'm only 38. But because my mother is a breast cancer survivor going on four years (Yeah!) my chances just doubled. So I'v had yearly exams since 35 and had my first exam at 32. So far - so good. All is Normal...and I intend to keep it that way.

Interested in more information about Breast cancer and Women's Health should check out these sites:

http://www.breastcancer.org/ - General Information on Breast Cancer - Its symptoms, treatments, risk factors and steps women can take to help lower your risk.

http://ww5.komen.org/ - Susan J. Koman for the Cure. A good starting place for info on information on breast cancer.

http://www.womenshealth.gov/ - Federal Government Resource for Women's Health Information.

http://women.webmd.com/ - A more general women's Health site.

My weekend in Idaho.....

2009-08-02T21:09:00Z

It was mostly what i expected.....boring. Nothing here in Coolin Idaho. At least in Nags Head, NC i could at least walk or drive to shop or browse at various places. This was not a REAL vacation...for me. I was BORED out of my fucking skull. I hate my family vacations.

Sigh...Its been almost a year and no update.

2009-07-13T10:42:29Z

Medications don't seem to work anymore...going to try to change them. Which may mean having to find another med shrink.

Hate taking 5 kinds of meds a day. Management is difficult.

Going on vacation in Idaho in a couple weeks. Not completely looking forward to it. I'm going though a bad phase of depression and fear it may effect the vacation. My eldest nephew, who has just turned 13, is also an aspy. He doesn't need to see this. He's doing very well as far as i know and so had avoided most of the trouble i encountered. Hopefully his high school years go much better then mine.

Outer Banks...Here we come....

2008-12-05T11:04:30Z

Yesterday i just heard from my dad that we might be going to back to the Outer Banks, NC this summer. Crossing My fingers!

WOW!!!

2008-11-22T06:12:44Z

Six weeks and a lot of shit has happened....

Election 08:

What else can i say....We got our first black president.....ok Obama's half-white....Virginia finally went Blue State for the first time since 1964... Nice to know this state can grow some balls now and then.

OK this is bullshit....

2008-10-08T02:23:11Z

OK !

I've been trying to contact the AnimeUSA about the volunteering and emailing them and NO RESPONSE!!! Screw it. Im gonna go up Thursday afternoon for my pre-reg badge and see if I can get some answers.

This weekend is gonna rawk (hopefully).......

2008-10-06T22:57:19Z

This weekend i going up to DC for the Anime USA Convention - as a volunteer and a spectator. Hopefully i can get my 20hrs volunteering in for my 2 crash spaces (meaning i wont have to fork up $125 a night for a hotel (Ouch!) I'm leaving either thursday or friday and i ain't coming home til Sunday. Whew! a few days to out of this out and away from the "old folks".

Here i am in Oregon...

2008-09-24T07:29:52Z

After a 6 hour flight from Richmond VA, i arrived in Portland around 11 am. I bit cool but not raining at least.

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Well - signed up for volunteering at the Anime USA convention in Arlington. Hopefully I'll hear back soon

FUCKING DUH>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

2008-09-08T23:56:24Z

http://people.howstuffworks.com/mad-genius.htm

I've known this for years....... Autism/Asperger's - Depression - Bipolar - etc..... How many times have i gotta this - NORMAL PEOPLE DON'T MAKE HISTORY!!?!?!?

AH..Finally did it..signed up for Volunteering for Anime USA

2008-09-07T00:32:44Z

I finally got the guts to sign up....never had done volunteering at this before.....registered for 20 Hours......
Have to remind myself to register before Sept 30!

Now that have finally gotten Broadband...

2008-08-26T03:10:04Z

I'm gonna to be working on this journal a little more.... maybe creating a few more avatars and shit...

My teeth are rotting away....damn Irish blood

2008-08-19T00:15:31Z

Got my biannual teeth cleaning. 3 cavities in the same area grr...

I think my dad is losing his memory....

2008-08-16T05:30:43Z

Today he a bought my a birthday cake. But my Birthday aint until early February!!!!

Holy shit is my dad losing my memory?

FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-07T02:04:58Z

I feel like a caged bird that just busted out his cage!!! Sooooooooooo long dialup :)

Baltimore, Here I come..........

2008-08-06T01:21:47Z

HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY...
Otakon - Balt, MD

Living in A Small Hickton, VA - not a lot of shit goes on.

I'm bored - Im depressed - I need an escape...

Otakon just gave me the oppertunity. I know it is short notice but fuck it - i wanna go!!!! why? I dunno! I just wanna fuckin go!!!!!

grrrrrrr..............

2008-08-01T06:10:50Z

"Payday". Ha!

Being on disability's a bitch. Around the third of every month, a hair under a grand drops in my bank account. Thats all ill ever get for the rest of my life(+COLAS each year). Im only 37. This is my life! I fuckin hate it!

Sad part is this is more than when I ever got working. So it aint the money.

I have little hope of imporving my life. I live with my parents (how fucking lame). My ability to go somewhere is restricted due to gas being a bitch (FUCK U Dubya! see ya in hell OIL PRICK!!!) and Exxon Mobil and the Oil CEO cocksuckas made a shitload of money while we scrimped and hocked our gold jewelry to by $4 a fuckin gallon.

Now I'll be stick with Dialup for another fuckin month. Cant get ISDN or FIOS. Satellite's too expensive and Wifi restricts the amount i can down/upload. Alternator died on my car last month so pile that in top of my monthy expenses and Im sure not going anywhere or do much til next month.

My lifes a waste. Its a good thing i believe in reincarnation so i can start over.

idole8 @ 2008-07-28T21:51:00

2008-07-29T01:51:54Z

sorry for the misspellings.

WHY?????

2008-07-29T01:49:38Z

http://news.search.yahoo.com/search/news?p=unitarian+church+shooting&ei=UTF-8

Oh dear....

They are one of the few human-based spritual institutions i completely honor and respect. It was they who were the one of the first to ordain women. They that welcomed Martin Luther King Jr. to thier church in Washington when most other "christians" refused him simply because he genetic code gave him a darker skin color. It was they who spoke up against the self-distructive behavior of destryoing thier envoionmental habitat DECADES before other institutions did. It was they who welcomed "G.B.L.T."s - unconditionally - and even allowed them to celebrate thier genetic difference, regardless of whether it was "legally recognized" or not.

Unfortunattly, it was specifically this that made them the target that day.

But in the face of this destructive act of hatred, i did see acts of love and sacrifice. One man shielded his wife but lost his eye in the process. Another paid with his life in trying to stop the shooter.

Humans risking themselves to save other humans....

HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-26T01:59:44Z

http://www.agoracosmopolitan.com/home/Frontpage/2007/08/29/01731.html

oohhhh Canada.................

We should stop fuckin with the american rednecks and start talking to Canada.

I hate using anal probes on humans - unless they're a pain in the ass!

Ah...the "joys" of dialup

2008-07-24T08:44:59Z

Dial Up sucks!

Its like having a Beta VCR in 1988.

No ISDN or FIOS. Will have to resort to Sattelite or Wifi.

Im thinking of going with WildBlue.